I’m slowly learning to be less harsh on myself. It’s okay if it takes me a while to get rid of my baggage. It’s okay if I don’t always say the right thing. It’s okay if my flaws see the light of day. Perfection is impossible. The standards I’m holding myself to are impossible. That’s why I’m always so frustrated with myself, why I never feel like I’m doing enough.
I’m slowly learning how hard it is to please yourself, to feel accomplished, to feel productive. It’s easy to celebrate the smallest successes of someone you love, but it’s hard to recognize your own accomplishments, even when they are miles high. It’s hard to take a step back and admit you did a good job. It’s hard to feel satisfied with yourself when you’ve spend a lifetime tearing yourself apart at the seams.
I’m slowly learning other people are under no obligation to give me a second chance — but I can never stop giving myself chances. I can never give up on myself. I can never lose faith in myself. I have to keep growing. I have to continue striving to be a good person, a kind person, a gentle person.
I’m slowly learning taking steps back isn’t the worst thing in the world. Healing isn’t linear. You aren’t going to get a little bit better every single day until you’re healed. You’re going to get a little better, get a little worse, and get better again. And that’s okay. You shouldn’t consider each bad day a major setback. You shouldn’t feel like a failure because you thought you were making progress and all of a sudden it feels like you’re back on square one again. Even if you completely ruin your progress, it doesn’t take away from the fact you originally made progress. Maybe next time you can make even more progress. And the time after that you can make even more.
I’m slowly learning how hard it is to maintain your morals, to do the right thing, to be a good person. Most of the time, the easiest thing to do is the wrong thing to do, it’s the shortcut, it’s the quick fix. You can’t be too hard on yourself when you make mistakes, when you give into your bad habits, because you’re only human. You’re going to fuck up every once in a while. But that doesn’t mean you give up on your personal growth. Doing one bad thing doesn’t mean you have to continue the streak. You can always redeem yourself. You can always reform and regrow.
I’m slowly learning to stop holding onto my past failures. Unless I’m going to learn something from my mistakes, there’s no reason to dwell on them, to lose sleep over them, to hate myself over them. My worst mistakes are behind me — and a whole world is in front of me.
I might make some more mistakes along the way, but I am more mature, wise, and clearheaded than I have ever been before. I am ready for whatever challenges come my way next.
Climb Aboard and Save a Magical 23% on the Lego Harry Potter Knight Bus Set
Thursday August 01, 2019
It’s going to be a bumpy ride but it’ll be worth it with a 23% discount on the Knight Bus Harry Potter Lego set, now just £26.99. Buy now: Harry Potter Knight Bus Lego Set for £26.99 (down from £34.99) Join Stan Shunpick and Ernie Prang on a motion sickness inducing ride to pick up … "Climb Aboard and Save a Magical 23% on the Lego Harry Potter Knight Bus Set"
Woody Is A Now Serial Killer, Thanks To Chilling Sekiro Mod
Wednesday July 31, 2019
Activision I’ve played through FromSoftware’s excellent – if brutal – samurai adventure Sekiro: Shadows Die Twice a few times now, but not once did I imagine it could be improved by the inclusion of Woody – the lovable star of Toy Story, memorably voiced by Tom Hanks. Clearly, we live in a world where there’s a mod … "Woody Is A Now Serial Killer, Thanks To Chilling Sekiro Mod"
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The Big Show Just Got His Own Netflix Sitcom Called The Big Show Show
Wednesday July 31, 2019
PA/wwethebigshow/Twitter A WWE wrestler is heading to Netflix. Who is it? Well, it’s The Big Show Show. The aptly named The Big Show Show will be a half-hour family sitcom, and it’s set to start filming in Los Angeles on August 9 this year. The larger-than-life wrestler will be playing a fictionalised version of himself, … "The Big Show Just Got His Own Netflix Sitcom Called The Big Show Show"
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